24 October, Lonely

Today nothing much...... Woke up....Wash up....Dress up....Ate breakfast....Went online on computer.....Ate lunch....Read Archie comic book..... Took a nap.....Woke up..... Went to walk Nicky with bro.....Went back home.....Went online on computer again......Went to watch TV...... Then went out to eat dinner..... Ate Cheese bake rice, yum.... Went back home......Went to take a bath.....Finished all that and went online on the computer again.



Now online and writing on blog. I feel so lonely these days.... It is because I am in a new school??? It is because I am not in my school so the people in my old school couldn't be bothered with me.... I cannot talk to anyone in my new school because they have their own group or their own companion to be with?? My whole life is about loneliness??? I can only still see a few friends from my old school in Sunday School??? While the rest don't even to bother how I am and how am I doing??? In my new school, is it about studying??? I always look at my book and never look at others or talk to them. I always do LIFEPAC(test) like everyday, Monday to Friday.... I don't talk so much in my new school. One girl from my last school is also in the school I am in now. Some people are starting to hate her. I am scared they hate me also. Is my life all about studying now??? In my last school (SMKSH), some teacher will not attend class and the students will be like walking around in class, talking to friends and making a lot of noise. The teachers also don't give homework sometimes.... In the school I am in now.... I give myself own homework. Its self study!!! If I don't do any work in my the school I am in now, I can ruin my future!! I AM LONELY!!! I AM FUCKING LONELY!!! None of my friends in my last school don't even bother to talk to me because I am not in the school anymore so I don't know any news to talk about. Maybe I should just stay at home and self study at home. My mum always tell me '' You have to take time to make new friends...''. I AM TAKING TIME!!! The school I am in, is hard!! I already know some people who hate one person from my last school. What will they think about me?!?!?! They might think I am annoying because sometimes I tried to talk to them to get to know them better. I don't know.... I am really lonely these days. I sometimes cry because I don't know who are friends now.... Some are not really talking to me because I am not in that school anymore. I change school because I don't like to do BM and I cannot do BM. I change school just for my future. I thought I could still keep in touch with some of my friends but I COULDN'T!!!! I don't even feel like going to school now. I just go to school and do work like a nerd. I don't know la... I am just gonna go become lonely for the rest of my school year....

That's all for today...